DAY1
My first night in Maastricht was a disaster.
I rode a cab from the airport not knowing that Maastricht was miles away (boy! that's a big lesson in geography).
I didn’t get to find my house right away (even if the cab has gps already).
I have felt the ever-elusive feeling of panic (I rarely panic…it’s not one of the major softwares God gave me).
When I finally reached my dorm, I cried.
I haven’t cried for a long, long time.
I have never felt so alone, so exhausted.
It got me thinking…why am I doing this? Of course, the answer didn’t came after a few weeks, (I know, which got you thinking that I have been wondering this foreign city directionless, and yes I was…but not anymore) as I sat down inside my class, listening to the tutor (they don’t call them lecturer here) God made me realize that I am already living one of my wishes, one of the things that I prayed so hard about.
It was over-whelming, suddenly I get to realized why I am there (or here).
It gave me a sense of reason.
It brought back the same feeling I have when I was in my country.
Suddenly, I am no longer lost.
No longer exhausted.
Yes, I do miss my life in the Philippines, my family, my friends, my students, chuck and all the things that Manila has, but for now I must admit that being here is worth all the troubles not because its for free and it somehow open doors to the limitless possibility of learning, but because I got back the one thing that I have lost for quite sometime…
And what is that?
It’s for me to know and for you to find out ;)
I rode a cab from the airport not knowing that Maastricht was miles away (boy! that's a big lesson in geography).
I didn’t get to find my house right away (even if the cab has gps already).
I have felt the ever-elusive feeling of panic (I rarely panic…it’s not one of the major softwares God gave me).
When I finally reached my dorm, I cried.
I haven’t cried for a long, long time.
I have never felt so alone, so exhausted.
It got me thinking…why am I doing this? Of course, the answer didn’t came after a few weeks, (I know, which got you thinking that I have been wondering this foreign city directionless, and yes I was…but not anymore) as I sat down inside my class, listening to the tutor (they don’t call them lecturer here) God made me realize that I am already living one of my wishes, one of the things that I prayed so hard about.
It was over-whelming, suddenly I get to realized why I am there (or here).
It gave me a sense of reason.
It brought back the same feeling I have when I was in my country.
Suddenly, I am no longer lost.
No longer exhausted.
Yes, I do miss my life in the Philippines, my family, my friends, my students, chuck and all the things that Manila has, but for now I must admit that being here is worth all the troubles not because its for free and it somehow open doors to the limitless possibility of learning, but because I got back the one thing that I have lost for quite sometime…
And what is that?
It’s for me to know and for you to find out ;)
posted by pinaybloodrush at
11:53 PM
3 Comments:
hi mam jen! i'm surprised you're already there in amsterdam.. time's so fast.. it's like it was just yesterday when you were sharing to us such blessed opportunity.. anyhow, i'm much more happy for you now that you've finally got back that "thing" you've lost.. hehe, seems like i got a hunch about that.. is that the one you told me, pamela and mart before? hehe.. God bless!
-meynard
i'm so happy for you ma'am...
Hold on ma'am jean there still more to come that would test your ability to adjust. Anyway try to enjoy yourself not every one has that kind of opportunity that you’re having right now. We are really happy and proud that one of your wishes came through. Hope we could get an update every week because it helps us feel that you’re just inches away from us and we are really trilled knowing what’s new on are favorite professor ;)
Take care ma’am! Enjoy learning!
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